The haunting pain

I refuse to live with it but I still feel it
The pain that comes with leading this life of total chaos
My heart bleeds from days I cannot speak about
Things that I never want to think about
I refuse to live with it but I still feel it
The hurt that comes from scars I got the time I stumbled and fell
The nights where I went to sleep at night with tears in my eyes or the times I had to act like there was no pain in my heart
I refuse to live with it but I still feel it
The burning sensation of tears in my eyes coming from the heaviness I carry around
The burden of this hard knock life has me wondering if I will ever be alright
I refuse to live with it but I still feel it
The uncertainty that comes with the thoughts of whether tomorrow will be a better day
I know that I used to pray and I always keep the faith but why do I keep feeling this pain?
All of this is draining me away but I still refuse to live with it although I still feel it
The never ending burden of this hard knock life.